Losing My Shit...

Ever get to the point where you get so consumed by the world around you and the idea of making a living that you forget to exist in the world and just live? 


Sitting here writing this feels more like I'm venting but in some way I guess that's what blogging is about, saying what you want about something, there's no script to what a person can blog about so that is what I am going to do here. Even then I don't really know where to start but I guess the beginning is the best place for me to start.

Over the last few months I have somehow managed to get myself completely lost... theoretically although there have been moments when I have been actually lost. 

The kind of lost I mean is when you're just forget where you're wanting to go in life, or is that just me? at the age of 19 so many people expect me to have things figured out and honestly I have absolutely nothing figured out, I still live at home with my parents, I'm unemployed and I'm doing my degree, I have a list of a thousand things that I need to do and zero motivation to do any of it. At this point I'm on the brink of a major disaster, if I was older I'd potentially consider this a midlife crisis the only reason I'm not saying that is because it would be rather tragic to think my life is haflway over at this point. 

I just don't have the foggiest of clues as to what's going on, my mind is in over drive and it's not looking pretty right now. When I look at other people they all seem to be going about their day getting on with it as if they know what they're actually doing, me on the other hand I'm just winging it hoping for the best hoping that one day I'll somehow magically figure it out. The most confusing part about all of this is that I'm not actually sure what I'm trying to figure out and the more I think I know the less I actually get. Life right now is like when you skip the introduction to a game that explains how you play the game hoping that you'll be able to pick it up as you go along, I have yet to pick it up and if anyone out there has please let me know becuause I'm a sinking ship. 

 Adult life sucks, I just want to run away, hide, eat pizza and binge on Netflix... 

Lemon Bars

When life hands you lemons... make lemon bars which is what I did. I had the day off and a list of things that I needed to do, so instead I decided to head into the kitchen see what I had in an bake; because sometimes I don't feel like being an adult and doing all the adult things I have to do.

 Anyways...


Ingredients

For the pastry:
275g of butter (softened)
200g of caster sugar 
150g of plain flour 

For filling:
4 large eggs
150g of caster sugar 
1 tablespoon of lemon zest 
100ml of lemon juice 

Icing sugar for dusting (optional)

1. Pre-heat the oven to 180 degrees C 
2. To make the pastry, cream together the butter and sugar, once this is well mixed sift in the flour (the pastry you get will won't be as firm as other kind of pastries. Press this into a baking tin, place in the oven for 15-20 minutes (until the pastry is golden and firm) 
3. While the pastry cooks mix the ingredients for the filling, ensure that they are fully combined together. 
4. Once the pastry is cooked, pour in the filling and cook for a further 15 minutes, then remove from the oven and allow to cool completely before cutting.
5. Dust with icing sugar 

After all of that you have the fun part of cutting them into whatever shape you want to, then you get to eat them! 

Chicken Pasta Bake

On occasion I have to make food for more than just myself, with my schedule I'm not always at home when everyone else eats so I'm usually cooking for myself. 

My speciality is pasta bakes, I'm pretty good at them, they are also a dish that you can make for as many people as you need to if it's 1 or 1000 people that you need to feed. One of the best things about pasta bakes is that you can experiment with them so much, you can create a lot of different meals without changing a lot. 

Ingredients:

• Chicken 
• Pasta 
• 2 tablespoons of olive oil
• Cheddar Cheese  

For the tomato sauce (can use shop bought) 

• 1 teaspoon olive oil 
• 2 cloves of garlic 
• 500ml crushed tomato
• 1 bay leaf 
• 1 teaspoon oregano 
• 2 tablespoons fresh basil 
• Salt and pepper to taste 

For the cheese sauce (can buy it from

Shop) 

• 50g of butter 
• 250ml of double cream 
• Salt 
• 75g of Parmesan cheese 
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To prepare the tomato sauce 

1. Sauté the garlic until a golden brown colour (do this on a low heat because garlic is easy to burn) 
2. Add the tomatoes, salt, pepper, oregano and bay leaf. Stir to mix everything in, then allow to simmer on the heat until reduced into a thick sauce. 
3. Mix in the basil. 

To make the cheese sauce 

1. Melt the butter in a pan on a low heat.
2. Add in the double cream stirring constantly, then mix in the cheese, add the salt to taste (if the sauce appears too thick then add in milk) 
3. Preheat the oven to 250 degrees Celsius 
4. Put the olive oil in a pan and fry your chicken until cooked 
5. While the chicken cooks boil the pasta in a pan of water 
6. Once the chicken is cooked take it out of the pan, when the pasta is cooked drain all of the water. 
7. Add the chicken and tomato sauce to the pasta and mix until all combined
8. Empty the pasta and chicken into an oven proof dish, pour the cheese sauce on top and sprinkle with cheese. 
9. Place in the oven until the cheese has melted and browned 

It's as simple as that, you can always change what meat you put in, or add anything you want to. If you do try this one let me know how you get on, leave me a comment!

June Favourites

Pinch Punch it was the first of the month, another month has gone in a split second. June has been a hectic month for both good and bad reasons so my favourites are rather short as the middle/end of the month was filled with some family issues so I haven't really tried too much but here are some of the things I have tried. 

Foundation- as you may know from my holiday posts (that I shall leave the link to here) I went away and spent the week soaking up the sun, which basically made my freckles darker so my foundation didn't cover anymore; meaning I needed a new foundation. I've used the Rimmel 25 hours foundation before so I figured I would give the Rimmel Match Perfection foundation a try and I'm glad I did because the coverage it gives is really great and it blends really well, making it a good drugstore foundation. Also the package that it comes in is also really useful, as it's a pump top meaning that there's less waste compared to when you have the open top ones. 

Seventeen Phawwr Concealer- if you read any of my posts or follow my private or blog Instagram you will mostly know that j have horrendous bags under my eyes regardless of how much sleep I get, so a heavy duty concealer is a requirement in my makeup case. This one by seventeen is defiantly up there with one of the best I've tried as it's reasonably priced, heavy duty coverage but still has a lightweight feel to it, and it's staying power is also pretty good as it lasts for a couple of hours. 

Book- I tried to read at least one new book a month more if I can, this month I read the five people you meet in Heaven by Mitch Albom. I have read a couple of Mitch Albom's books before and I have loved them, reading this one I didn't want to put it down. I'm not sure whether it's the story that Mitch is trying to tell or the way in which he tells it that gets me hooked. The book is about exactly what the title says, however there is so much more that comes with it, while reading it in a sense helps to understand everyday things that weren't as obvious. If you have the chance then you should definitely give it a read. 

I know this month’s favourites is really short, the reason for that is simply because I've had family issues and I've not really had the time to do anything or go out and try new things, but I promise things are looking up and I will try more things out, let me know if there's anything in particular that you want to see, until next month this is my favourites. 

Your Skin In Summer

A lot of people want to get the perfect summer tan, by doing this a lot of people forget to actually take care of their skin and actually damage it with some of the methods they use to get a tan. Looking after your skin all year round is important, in the summer there are a few more things that you have to think about. 

1.  Wear Sun-cream- when people want to tan they tend to just jump out in the sun with nothing on, this just increases your chance of getting servery burnt which is highly dangerous. Even when it seems cloudy it's always a good shout to put on sun-cream just in case as you can still get burnt. 

2. Avoid being in the sun midday- if it's possible it's better to seek shade during midday as this is when the sun is at its highest point and you're more likely to get burnt. 

3. Protect your lips- wear lip balm with some for, of SPF factor in to protect the delicate skin that's around your lips and keep reapplying every few hours I like to use the Nivea one which is SPF 30 which to me as someone who burns easily is a good factor to have. (I'd avoid using oil based lip products as in the sun you'll just essentially be cooking your lips. 

4. Moisturise!- the heat will dry out your skin which if you do get burnt or you do begin go tan will just cause your skin to peal, which you do want to avoid, so make sure you moisturise. Also apply a moisturising after-sun at the end of the day, even if it doesn't appear that your body has necessarily burn as sun burn can take a couple of hours to develop. 

5. Keep hydrated- this one is not only fir your skin but for your entire body and physical health, keep regularly drinking water and remember to actually drink water as your body needs than more then any other drink.  

Remember to look after your skin, you only get one in a life time it's really important that you take care of it.